HOPELESS
My problems are too many to count,
Solutions nowhere to be found
How and where do I even look
If there’s nothing to be found?
Pain fills my lungs as I drown
As waves of despair crash into my shore
I try to swim and gasp for air
But an anchor with your name drags me down
I walk and talk and breathe
But do I, do I really feel?
I’m just so hopeless
Will this pain ever leave?
They told me love completes you,
But when you left,
Took my heart and soul too
So then, I made a vow
That I would never again drown
And I will give myself the love
That you never could offer.
ECHOES OF UNFULFILLED HOPE
Why do I keep stumbling and falling,
Trying to suppress feelings, endlessly stalling,
For people I thought would stay forever near,
Yet, despite it all, they’re still not here.
Why do I feel this endless ache,
My heart shattered, a constant heartbreak,
From repeated falls and the feelings, I chase,
In a cycle of hope that I can’t erase.
How can I avoid these desires that bind,
For those I thought would walk the same path aligned,
Believing in dreams that seemed so right,
How can I heal from this endless fight?
Will I always be left hoping and yearning,
For someone I thought was deserving and earning?
Though my faith was strong and true,
I was misled by signs that gleamed and drew.
But why does it hurt so much to find,
Questions that echo in my restless mind,
That I alone gave meaning where none was found,
To the illusions I created, profound.
GRATEFUL FOR FRIENDS
Vision is 20/20,
Never thought love is what would blind me
Went above and beyond,
But I was still temporary
As I look through the rose-tinted glass,
I see him as the flawless man—
But my friends pull me back to earth
And tell me what I’m truly worth
I know that he knows what I feel,
He knows what I told him was real.
He says he’s down for whatever,
But I guess he’s afraid to settle
Take but never give,
That’s all he made me feel.
When he does the minimum,
I fall head-over-heels
I’ve been told I’m naive,
I dwelled and I grieved.
When he doesn’t catch me,
I know my friends will.
I am grateful for the people around me:
My brothers and sisters in Christ, and my family.
They remind me of what should be priority:
My mind, my peace, and my sanity
hurt
It’s been a while since I felt this weight,
Down and weary, a heavy heart’s fate,
Unloved and tangled in a web of doubt,
When will it end? When will it fade out?
I’m so tired, worn thin by the things I’ve borne,
Feeling foolish for the love I’ve sworn.
I gave my all, to friends and strangers alike,
Yet in this crowd, why must I be struck by strife?
Hurt, deep and unrelenting, consumes my soul,
A pain so profound it leaves me feeling whole,
Numb and lost, my thoughts in disarray,
Weary and burdened, day after day.
Why must I endure this endless ache,
Wishing for physical wounds over this heartache?
I long for simpler times, a child’s carefree play,
Where joy and love were the light of each day.
in every season
When I’m on the edge of giving up the fight,
You guide my way and make things right.
You are the Lord who never fades,
The source of strength in all our days.
In every season, when I’m feeling low,
You’re the one who hears and helps me grow.
When anxiety clouds, you bring me peace,
In the darkest times, your light won’t cease.
Your love surrounds me, tender and near,
In every whisper, I find joy and cheer.
You’re the God of wonders, vast and grand,
The rock, the star, and guiding hand.
You turn the dark into a shining day,
Heal the sick and make the weary okay.
You give us more than we could ask for,
In your grace, we find our core.
